Those Last Damn Five Pounds

If I lose five pounds....

I'll still have another five to lose, won't I?

It's almost prom time! I have yet to find a dress as I have one of those body types that aren't just petite, top heavy, pear-shaped, tall, skinny, "curvy". No, no, you see Seventeen my body has more than one dimension.

But I don't want to shop for a dress until I lose five pounds.

I'm thinking this and then I start wondering why am I thinking this. I have a healthy bodyweight. I'm not some waif. My belly is soft and my breasts are....well, the term here is legendary. I have some cellulite on my thighs but I wear size-4 jeans so I'm not by any standard fat.

Yet I look in the mirror and grab my stomach fat with both hands and angrily shake it. I have a skirt that is a size or two too small and keep it in my closet in hopes that one day I can wriggle it on. I'm envious of those supermodels who are too-skinny and who I know aren't healthy. But I want to be them.

So I keep on hoping I'll lose five pounds.

Thing is, I could be five pounds skinnier and then I would want to lose another five. And another five. And another.

When does it stop?

Stabbing (Ourselves) In The Back

I really hate Facebook sometimes. I hate being able to see people's core in lists of interests, activities, fan pages and groups.

Some groups are really amusing. I for one am glad I am a member of "The Doctor and The Master Have Sexual Tension" and "Rubber Ducky Jr." But Facebook groups like "Girls Who Aren't Cheap Sluts" or fan pages of "Boys who don't date skanks" and the ilk make me slightly nauseous and very upset.

Why do we judge people based on how much sex they've had? Or better yet - why do we judge someone based on how much sex we think they've had? I never thought sex was special, in a good way or a bad way. I believe in safe sex, and I believe in sex education that isn't heteronormative. To me, if sex is consensual (more on this later), safe I don't see what the fuss is about.

If you're a female than you're probably either a "virgin" or a "whore". No in betweens. Gotta be like a virgin, touched for the very first time every time you have sex otherwise you're a worthless skank! And girs are falling over themselves to try to label themselves as "good girls". They do this by trying to cast other females as "bad girls". It's a race for the almighty approval of the penis!

Fidelity: Regina Spektor and Gay Marriage

WARNING: May Make You Cry


"Fidelity": Don't Divorce... from Courage Campaign on Vimeo.


A million people have already linked this, I know. I also know that (as of the moment hopefully!) no one reads this blog. But still, if anyone has not seen this and happens to chance upon the Last Menagerie in Town then I can hope they can see this.

I had phase where I loved, loved, loved anti-folk. The Moldy Peaches blasted out of my iHome, and Regina Spektor herself graced my 'AWESOMESAUCE' playlist.

I don't actually like 'Fidelity'.

But I do agree that please.

Don't divorce my loved ones.

Beth Ditto: Size-ism and Sexism

http://www.spinner.com/2008/05/08/gossip-grrrl-beth-ditto-takes-full-control/

I've loved the Gossip for a while. They're a fun band and Beth Ditto has a beautiful, throaty, sexy voice. I admire her style of clothes and admire her vision.

She brings up a good point - that men decide what is beautiful for a woman and what isn't. The fashion industry, although traditionally being female-oriented is male dominated. The biggest names in fashion (Marc Jacobs, Calvin Klein, Yves Saint Laurent) are men. Which is fine of course, but we should look with a critical eye that men don't quite understand a female's body whether or not they're heterosexual or not.

I own corsets, have a size 26 waist naturally and have a 32F chest. I'm less of a person and more of a Barbie Doll. I feel depressed when my weight goes up or if I don't wear cutting-edge fashion. There's such pressure in society to have the perfect body that as a feminist I should rail against and ignore.

I don't. I feel empowered when I look pretty, when I have my corset and heels on. Not empowered in the sense that I'm a new womyn or something like that.

Beth Ditto is my idol though. She's amazingly beautiful and strong.

Does anyone have any idols that break from the traditional Angelina Jolie-look-a-like mold?

(Not that I hate Ms. Jolie. I admire her activism)